Friday, February 16, 2007

Mack The Knife

I looked at all my medical insurance records, and since 1998, I've undergone what qualifies as surgery 11 times. Tomorrow morning we go for the even dozen. The Doc, aka Mack the Knife, is going to make another attempt at putting Humpty together again.

I've not taken to being jittery or nervous or psychotic about surgery before, but tonight I'm a bag of nerves. There's a lot at stake here, kind of a "make or break" kind of thing. It's midnight here, and no more food or drink, so I really need to sleep. I'm rarely morbid, but it's gotten to me a little, and sleep has definitely been at a premium.

I also rarely have dreams related to anything "real world" but I had a dream earlier today while napping, and "they" were getting ready to hit my chest with those cardiac paddles, only I was awake, just couldn't tell them I was fine. Too weird.

It's inconvenient, at worst, and fairly risk free. But I'm uncharacteristically spooked tonight.

So, just in case the paddles don't work ( insert smart-ass grin here ) I want my "last" entry to say:

Thank you for sharing your worlds with me. Thank you for showing me intelligence, class, elegance, and some serious writing talent. Thanks for showing me that there are people out there in the world who are not insane. And thank you for a much-needed diversion tonight.

Love ya all. You know who you are. (Oh and, ly. :) Thanks for always being my friend.)

14 comments:

  1. Good luck. See you on the flip side.

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  2. I'm sending positive thoughts and prayers your way. Wow, 12 surgeries.

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  3. You'll be in my prayers.

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  4. Good luck. I've never had surgery before and I know some day I will have to---I'm sure it will scare the he** out of me.

    I don't think you're going to die; I'm sure you have many more words of wisdom to share with the world.

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  5. Anonymous4:29 PM

    I wish I knew you were feeling spooked...I wish I could have talked to you. But now, I only have one wish....that you had a successful and not-too-damn-painful surgery. (ok, so that's 2)
    Let me know how it went.

    Nancy

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  6. Hurry back! My prayers are with you. We have plenty of '80's crushes to talk about now that we know that we have them in common.

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  7. Hope it all works out as planned or better. I've never been 'under the knife' so just imagining it spooks me. But my prayers are with you, too.

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  8. {{{hugs}}}
    Good luck
    You're in my prayers~
    Marie

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  9. Anonymous4:37 PM

    You'll be dancing before you know it!
    My prayers are with you.

    Sharlene

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  10. Anonymous3:40 PM

    Please know you are in my prayers and positive thoughts!

    Monica
    http://journals.aol.com/sonensmilinmon/Pollyannascorner/

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  11. Anonymous12:02 AM

    hey u r just fine u must live 898989yrs din i lyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

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  12. Pamela1:08 AM

    Hi Jimmy! I've never had surgery so I don't know the anguish that you suffered. Now it's well past the surgery day, and I hope you have a speedy recovery.
    Don't ever stress out alone, Jimmy. If you ever need to talk, you can call me, deal?
    Pam

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  13. Hey there, Friend!!!

    I hope all is well. Sending my prayers and good wishes for a speedy recovery.

    :)

    Lady M

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  14. I can empathize. It is terrifying every single time.

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