While there are definitely time constraints on my life, due to starting my own business and doing what it needs to get it moving, there's something else that holds me back.
I wrote a little entry recently, commenting about how you can become monotonous and boring if you're one of those people who seem to live a life that's nothing more than a series of dramas, crises and episodes. And I think I was pointing that at myself more than anyone.
I don't write a lot about what's going on here. I tend to go "journalist" or "columnist" when I hit these phases. I love to write. I just don't like to write about the "waaah, my life sucks" thing, day after day after day.
Truth is, life does suck a whole lot here lately. I do recognize the good that I have...my kids, my family, my partial health (heh heh). And I know that money doesn't buy happiness.
But neither does poverty, ya know?
I have responsibilities that I absolutely have to live up to. I just had to find a different way to do it. And I'm working on that.
But for the time being, it's a soul-sucking, pride-swallowing process I'm going through. It's not fun, not interesting, and not enjoyable. But maybe it will make a good back-story some day.
Just not now, ya know?
I hope to bring my own brand of nonsense to my new business, so that I can share the idiocy with you here. Hope that it's sooner than later.